Sitting, Waiting, Wishing.

     Well until today, I had been posting my life saga on a different blog on the same account and it was very frustrating to have to keep up with two. So i deleted one and Im just going to post on this one and start over.

(For those of you who never read the old ones, you didn’t miss much other than a bunch of complaining about my life)

      And I’m taking it as a sign that negativity never helps anyone and this blog will be more positive.  I am very happy to say that Im dealing with my problems a lot better. And even though Im having a few set backs  I think its going to turn out alright. I realized that one of my friends has a wordpress account and that makes me happy/feel less alone. 

      As for the daily update!: 

 Today went surprisingly well. I got invited to a party and that made me feel good. Also i made a 90 on a quiz in ap bio that i skipped one of the only two questions. Do not ask me how this happened. I slept away my afternoon. Staying up watching horror movies does that to you i guess. But i also found a lunch buddy. YAY And the biggest news of all….I won most unique style for the senior superlatives in my class!!! yayyy haha. Today was a good day. Hopefully i will have more to write and more time to write it tomorrow. I’m off to shower. Adieu 

     I will begin to post the stories of my days online for public viewing. And also since no one I know really reads this it will be easier to vent all my frustrations without worrying about offending someone. Lets get started shall we?

      Well, today was an terrible day. Now that I think of it, it is a very bad day to start my blog about. But what the heck? So i had to go to the ER since I have the stupid problem of cysts on my ovaries rupturing at very inconvenient times. So i spent the greater part of my day begging someone to shoot me and relieve me of my misery until a VERY nice lady at the hospital gave me a shot of what can only be described as total euphoria. Since then i have done nothing but slept/drink coke/eat crackers/watch cops.

            Other than that, I must admit I have been feeling sorry for myself lately. My life hasn’t exactly ended up the way I would like it to be. Relationships? lets not go there. I hate feeling so alone all the time. Even though I have Lena (best friendd ) I still feel like part of me is missing. I feel like I don’t know where to turn or who to talk to. I lost the one that knows me best. And when I needed them most they aren’t here. Not that I blame them. It just makes me very upset at the way things are. And now that i have succesfully thrown one hell of a pity party for myself, I’ll talk about something happy.

    I have a new cell phone, which I love more than anything in the world right now. And also, I went to a small party with close friends this weekend and I must admit i had a great time. I have been changed due to the book The Stranger by Albert Camus. This book really has truly been an unexpected gift in my life. Now that i have finished it, I’m left with the true appreciation of life. It made me realize that acceptance is something that makes life what it is. I have also realized that I need to accept the things that  are going on with myself lately too…

         First of all, thank you Daniel for finding me something to become addicted to. Also, I have now tricked Lena into making one of these too and that makes me very happy. We are pulling an all nighter so i figured i would get a head start on this. 

         Tonight. was. amazing. Waffly house with Lena and Matt. The food is repulsive yet it was hilarious. I really love my jammies. thank you matt. hope the jacket fits. Well its X-mas eve. Joy! not really. This time of year has got me down. Today was pretty much a bust. I still have yet to write that paper. Due to a recent dream i had, I am now going to be up for hours on end. And now i must leave to watch planet earth or something like it….